To like ourselves as we are
To see ourselves as the best we can be
Life is not fair
Just like no one ever said it would be
My heart hurts again
It hurts, and I don’t care what anyone says about it
I have a right to say what I want and feel what I feel
And I have a right to say who is an insensitive jerk and who isn’t
Why should I worry about anything that is wrong with me
When im my own advocate for not changing for anyone
I’m tired of the games that people play
The games that I go into an unwilling player
And keep me up at night crying
Its hard to keep a good head about your shoulders
And remember that you are a good person
When all the arrows in your life point the opposite way
And you think u have direction
And every interception you encounter
You think will make your life better
But in turn destroy it piece by piece
Several pieces in a game that is so complicated and worldly
Moving in and out of the game
One piece lying broken and used in the box
The box I have built for myself that is supposed to protect me
But being stupid as I am I always let people in
Taking blind faith that they always have the best intentions
But there is always somebody better..
Nobody ever has any time anymore
And I think its time to just accept that I have always been alone,
Am
And probably always will be
I'm tired of crying. I'm tired. And that's enough | 
.ok well its time for bed, hooray for the new winter quarter i guess.
but either way it was fun. the line for starbucks was out the door, but luckily we were there early enough that we only had to wait 10 mins. yay? dang its only 9:12 and im already tired. its probably cuz jen and i had to get up at 630 this morning to move her car to a metered spot cuz she was gonna get a ticket. we got back here and i couldnt go back to sleep, so i spend a good hour talking to my mom on the phone in the living room and waking the rest of my housemates up. 
mmmm nothing like mint tea. im done for the night. peace out.
